My testimony is this, I have been a sinner in thought and deed for a long time. Even after having a spiritual encounter with the risen glorious Jesus Christ did I continue as a sinner. Maybee the death of dying to yourself for some of us, takes place over a long period of time. It is so painful and mind boggling some times, that I wonder how anyone could be saved.
My God is someone I have seen face to face, he is the one who has put me to the "dying of oneself". I would have never chosen to do this on my own, I don't think any true Christian does. I can't seem to find a "church" where I would belong, although I do feel I am part of Christ's congregation. He has given me dreams that I know would only come from him. I just wish he would bring his kingdom to this world NOW! I guess patience is something I'm still working on.
"Father in heaven, create in me clean heart, and renew a right spirit within me, cast me not away from thy presense, nor take thy Holy Spirit from me" this is what I most often pray.
May God empower us to stand in these last moments of earths history and strengthen us mightily in the doing of his will!